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LJ!
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[23 Sep 2005|03:31pm] |
"my party cost more than my parents' wedding but..... i deserved it"
-jazmin on super sweet 16
go die spoiled rich kids!
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[02 Aug 2005|07:53am] |
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I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i feel as though my life is finally coming together. one of those things where once one thing improves, everything else just seems to fall into place. all the court business is done, my relationships are good with BOTH my parents, things are great with Jacob, and I love my friends, I'm doing better in school and other unresolved matters just seem to be settling. It's really refreshing, and all my doctors say I haven't been this good for more than a year and have decreased my treatment tremendously. I feel so happy and it's really nice to be able to say that with no hesitation.
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| something beautiful by a beautiful person |
[05 Feb 2005|08:47pm] |
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and these ARENT lyrics. this was written by a close friend
THE CERAMIC MASSACRE
I always brought the laughter
but never received the joy.
The good times were always fake
plastic, painted, and put up on display
for one to proudly gaze at
like little collectors’ dolls with happy faces:
ceramic and still.
But ceramic is easily broken,
for just one trip to the floor
would leave the tiny faces
broken and no more.
Completely unexpected
all the toys came tumbling down.
And with just one fell swoop
the ceramic memories hit the ground.
On impact with the cold stone floor
the fragile dolls were shattered.
Slaughtered memories and faded laughs
broken beyond repair and scattered.
But strangely I lacked sympathy
for all those pretty faces
that were so violently brought to the ground,
for they only littered the floor
with remnants unable to locate and dispose of,
that would soon cause gashes in the feet
of those who happened to step on them.
Somehow one doll remained on the shelf
but she had no smile or frown,
just a blank face, as if she could not decide
whether she was happy she was still intact
or disappointed she had held on
and didn’t plunged to the death with the rest.
I looked down from her to the over-exaggerated mess
without remorse or regret, only disappointment.
For despite the fictional smiles and pretend laughs
I generally enjoyed the time we shared,
and will miss the little things, but nothing more.
With a dustpan in one hand, and broom in the other
I knelt down and began to clean up the old memories
thinking no more of them than chaotic and unorganized clutter.
Damn the one who knocked them over,
yet praise them for ending the lie
Leave me in the dirt and I’ll leave you with my wasted time
and the massacred memories to at the bottom of my trash
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[30 Dec 2004|10:14am] |
ok so yesterday erin comes over and we're like ok, what are we gonna do? so we decide to put on this disney CD and start dancing like crazy and all into it and it was soooo awesome. i wish i could do it everyday. then we just hung out and vented and talked and listened to music. we dropped her off and then me and my mom went to dinner.
well first we went to the wrong place, but thats ok because my other friends emily went there too so we all met up but then we just ended up going to filippi's and eating pizza. and sydney got a candle in her ice cream for her birthday but then they took it back to put it in some other person's brithday ice cream because theyre stingy.
then i came over to erins and we just hung out for a very long while. played with black light, watched funny andrew lloyd webber movie, pretended we were phantom of the opera, it was sweet. then we called random people, i think only one person picked up. i think it was tylor green. we watched dodgeball and went to bed at around 4.
<3 signing off
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| gooooood weekend! : ) |
[31 Oct 2004|08:40pm] |
this weekend was pretty fun...
friday night i went to see SAW with erin, brett, rachel, courtney cox, and heather link. haha we got kicked out, it was a long story but basically we're criminals. that about sums it up- yea guys? i had a fabulous time though, we rented TAKING LIVES and watched it at Erin's. ahhh i was so scared, and brett screamed like a girl. he's so funny, i love him!! :D "while we're at the lawbreaking..." "i'd only steal music and a purse." i laughed SOOOOO much that night, it was definitely needed. those kids are nothing but smiles, and i love them.
saturday was DA BEARS party.... pretty good. talked to Cori my love, Jake spent the night and we watched THE SHINING, ahhhh!
today was HALLOWEEN! went trickRtreating w/ erin and that crew. oh goodness i love brett!! we were singing moulin rouge songs to each other and squeezing each other when we got scared and laughing sooo much!
it was so so so so fun! thanks guys for a great time
now im off to heathers
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| keep telling myself to cheer up |
[28 Oct 2004|08:07pm] |
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AccordingToTime:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
AccordingToTime:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
AccordingToTime:
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
AccordingToTime:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me
AccordingToTime:
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
thanks david, i love you
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| imagine all the people, living for today... |
[28 Oct 2004|05:49pm] |
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I remember in 7th grade when me, Michelle Lee and Miranda were all best friends.
There are an infinite amount of awesome memories that mean the world to me.
I wouldn't trade them for anything. Ever.
We used to do the most ridiculous things.
Few of you have any idea the incredibly dumb things we did together.
I remember acting retarded to get out of math class.
I remember the first time we all ditched and thought we were so bad.
I remember being so amused by this stupid book that we thought was hilarious.
I remember doing not-so-nice things to each other at sleepovers.
I remember the laughs.
I remember the rutts.
I remember everything as clearly as though it were yesterday.
And I miss it. And I miss Miranda.
So Miranda, here's to letting you know that I love you, I miss you, I haven't forgotten a thing.
You are wonderful, I'm sorry for your suffering. I love you, heal quickly.
There's always a spot for you in these arms and in this heart. ( i love you )
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[18 Oct 2004|04:34pm] |
Today was gorgeous
i was wearing Jacob's clothes
completely soaking wet
wrapped in his arms
swinging around
the rain was pouring down
and all my makeup had washed away
And i've never felt so beautiful in my life
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[25 Aug 2004|05:59pm] |
nose: wsqamm
elbow: samm
chin: sa m n
feet: vsasmm
eyes closed and one finger: sa,,
back of my hand: ssw,,j
palm: samm
mouse: swsmnmn
wrist: sxsa MM ,
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| A Lack Of Color |
[24 Aug 2004|10:31pm] |
And when I see you, I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around
If you feel discouraged when there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover, it's really bursting at the seams
from absorbing everything, the spectrum's A to Z.
(ahh... ahhh...)
This is fact not fiction for the first time in years
All the girls in every girlie magazine can't make me feel any less alone,
I'm reaching for the phone to call at 7:03
and on your machine,
I slur a plea for you to come home.
But I know it's too late, and I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay; given you a reason to stay;
given you a reason to stay
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| surveys are so gay |
[24 Aug 2004|01:12pm] |
x all that apply to you.
(x) i've never been drunk
(x) i've never smoked pot
( ) i've never kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) i've never kissed a member of the same sex
(x) i've never crashed a friend's car
(x) i've never been to Japan
( ) i've never rode in a taxi
(x) i've never had anal sex
( ) i've never been in love
( ) i've never been dumped
(x) i've never shoplifted
(x) i've never been fired
(x) i've never been in a fist fight
(x) i've never had a threesome
( ) i've never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) i've never been tied up (sexually)
(x) i've never been caught masturbating
(x) i've never pissed myself
(x) i've never been arrested
(x) i've never made out with a stranger
(x) i've never stolen something from my job ((whats to steal..))
(x) i've never celebrated New Years in Time Square
(x) i've never gone on a blind date
( ) i've never lied to a friend
(x) i've never had a crush on a teacher
(x) i've never celebrated Mardi-gras in New Orleans
( ) i've never been to Europe
( ) i've never skipped school
(x) i've never slept with a co-worker
( ) i've never hurt myself on purpose
(x) i've never been married
(x) i've never been divorced
(x) i've never had children
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| saturday night |
[09 Aug 2004|02:30pm] |
ok so 2 nights ago= crazy night
saturday night i got picked up with annie, bailee, erika, allie, we met up with jesse and wuampa and we drove around and went to el cotixan for some food. it was good stuff. then we hung out at cadman park for a while and then went midnight bowling, it was sooo rad. i suck at bowling, so does bailee. i think jesse and allie really won. me and jesse got best friend dice and ended up winning a dollar from a bet. best friend talks and such, then we went to mission bay and then la jolla shores and then someone decided to go on a road trip so we went on a mini road trip for a while and then got hepatitis from a mexican bathroom and burritos and stuff, then dennys. "JESSE!! YOUR DINNERS READY!" "The number you have reached cannot be reached right now" "Its a cute baby!" "everythings closed faggot!" "fuk your life!" "I used to sleepwalk...in my sleep" "What are you doing? -im surfing!"
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lets start at the very beginning, a very good place to start. jake came over, slept in my bed, cuddling, movie, dinner with parents. then he left when bailee and annie came to pick me up.
went to the square and hung out and got candy. then got allie and her brother got them some alcohol. and got erika and went to the park and met jesse, frank, wuampa and david hahn. hung out and me, erika, bailee allie and wuampa went to JbX. "Its so extreme!!" and the barbeque sauce. there was this wierd asian lady with a sombrero who offered wuampa her chicken sandwich it was sooo hilarious. and when he asked her her name she said "PIE!" in a really freakish voice. back to kate sessions, me-bailee-frank bonding, hes our pimp and we're his bitches. then back to JbX then Vons for ice cream drumsticks! We went back to the park and ate our ice cream and then at like 12 we decided we wanted to go ice blocking, so we went back to vons and bought ice blocks. me, allie, bailee, and frank were like hardcore extreme ice blocking it was sooo crazy. and then allie pretended her leg was broken so we wouldnt have to walk back up thh hill. then raving and crip walking, then me and my best friend (jesssay reeos) had a nice talk, and then i went home and it was pretty cool. oh yea and like half the time me bailee and frank had to sit in the back of the car! FRANK ON ICE! "Whoooaaa, your leg is like... half your body!!" "What if my mom makes better bread?" -Frank
good times i love you guys and i love jake!
jacob sono il vostro my darling
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sunday i moved and it was k*patrol sleepover, we played hoes and i got my hair cut, refer to other k*patrol Lj's.
TODAY!!- Jake came over and i friggin made him a quesadilla!! We watched the others and then annie and bailee picked me up then kel and we went to water polo! "Dude major air your razor scooter!" "i'm so sad i dont even wanna talk about it" Raymocious is hilarious coach.
Then we went and visited Jessica Derenski at her work and we ate like 3 pizzas by the end of the night. we went ice blocking at kate sessions with allie, josh, jesssay reeos, wuampa (MANCHU), jazmin lapree and ummm i forget who else and i talked to jermaine like twice when he called jesse's phone. wuamps carried me and bailee on his back at the same time! me and jesse are best friends!! we have a handshake and everything and look at his phone there are 2 bears hugging and its me and him cause we're best friends heck yes! we met evan, jake, and tyler at el cotixan and oh yea jesse's new car is totally bitchin and i crip walked!! we went back to the park and jerms and more people were there, wuampa lit his mouth on fire, how cool is that. me and annie are straight edge haha! ahhh i love everyone i hung out with soo much they are way rad! but my ring broke and thats sad, can someone please fix it for me?
<3s to the extreme!
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[31 Jul 2004|10:50pm] |
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projecTcpyrIGHT: hahaha so funny, my friend and i were thinking if they made a gay island
projecTcpyrIGHT: and on the island if somethign sucked they said: straight
projecTcpyrIGHT: like: "man I just got laid off work today" "straight!"
oh boy, ryan solomon you are so damn cool. what took us so long? edit: *you're* so damn cool, haha. worth all the effort!
Ok I'm moving in a matter of hours!! Visit me at my new house 4870 Cole Street! You can come over anytime you want!!
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| your mom goes to college!! |
[31 Jul 2004|03:05pm] |
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Yesterday was the extra-long work day, followed by a sleepover.
I went to Cori's and met her and Bailee there. We hung out and had a grand old time doing all sorts of things. It was quite lovely. We talked and lots of goooood stuff that I cannot tell anyone on here because it's super top secret man! We watched Willy Wonka and drank Pina Coladas and it was wonderful. I'm also gonna do summer league for water polo, yay go me!! We fell asleep in Donald's room, Cori slept on the top bunk and me and Bailee shared Donald's bed. I kept waking up randomly throughout the night to find Bailee and I getting a little too cozy. Why do I always end up sleeping with cuddlers? Haha Chels. In the morning we watched Grind and me and Cori had a great <3-2-<3. Then I left to come home and not go to the Pride Parade : ( Not going to Aquabats tonight cause I'm moving tomorrow. So if anyone else not going would like to hang out, call me up.
CHEESE!
peas?
no, CHEESE!
beans?
spell it!
C-H-E-E-S-E!!!
"i'm so sad"
I love you 2 so much and I had a wonderful time!! <3s upon <3s
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[29 Jul 2004|10:16pm] |
Working with the kids has kept me pretty busy...
Tuesday went to Napoleon Dynamite with Julia, then to Corvette Diner for a shake. She's rad, I love her. Salt, sugar, ketchup, and stickers... It says HI!
Yesterday Jake came over when I got home and we hung out and watched a film in my home cinema. Ate dinner with my family, that sort of thing.
After we dropped him off I went to a shindig at Julia's and pretty much just hung out with her, Hannah, and Shelby. Because I don't like Kaitlyn or Chelsea. We did funny things to them while they slept. It was wonderful. Ew Kaitlyn has so much gel in her hair, she doesn't ever brush it, its sooo gross. she just slept and then got up and went, and she had so much gel her hair just stayed that way. GROSS!
And tonight Katie came over for a bit. Yay for Katie O'Hara!
I miss a lot of people. Josh, Chels, Bailee, Cori... ahh theyre all so great
That's all for now <3
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| Shtuff |
[26 Jul 2004|01:45pm] |
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Golly... Friday night Jake came over and we watched a movie, it was a good time. Went to a lot of trouble for my frekin movie, cookie dough and deep talks and crying and stuff. Man I love that guy so much. We dropped him off at his house around 12:30.
Bonfire to celebrate Heather's homecoming on Saturday. Then there was a sleepover and I didn't go to bed till 8 AM, it was a crazy night. For details refer to the LiveJournals of Jill, Kelly, Megan, Jasmine or anyone else who was there. But not Heather or Alyx cause they slept. Haha I love you guys though!
Sunday I went to a BBQ for my Aunt Jennie and my sister Lisa's birthday. Then we went to church at Paseo Del Rey, gooood stuff.
Today was the first day of five, VBS days at my church. So I'm working there but not getting paid. But 150 kids IS work. Pretty fun though cause the other people working with me are Shelby and John and Steven. "This is perpostrous!" "That was like MOLASSES, Flash." : )
I think things are better with me and Chelsea, I really really really hope so. I love her so freking much.
I'm moving in 6 days!!
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